Alaiyah

What's wrong with me

2011-04-24T21:57:00.002+08:00

Hard for me to say,cuz I happen to make it painful for him to see my smile. I'm not a child anymore,but why the heck am i hurting someone i love by making him jealous,maybe because when i'm jealous,i tend to be sarcastic and say words i don't mean.i know he said something he actually didn't mean. but i'm more jealous than i usually was.sometimes,maybe i should lock myself with walls full of mirrors until i realise i've just hurt myself and him again.I'm not that girl who would leave it out to dry off the tears alone no more.i'm here to catch them,i'm here to catch those tears,and catch that fall every step of the day.i will go through it physically,emotionally and mentally.

If I had the feeling left

2011-04-10T03:18:00.003+08:00

so this song,even though its short i'm sure i get the message pretty well.the thing is,Best friend,we're long away from that.it might agitate me more than it agitate you to see you.i dunno if it might hurt to see you again.i don't know if i might run away.if it hurts,then i deserve it well.i deserve that.

2011-02-04T15:12:00.002+08:00

hey,i haven't updated myself for quite a while.funny,i have a feeling i should sip a glass of hot chocolate and remember back my past.February is kind-of not a good feel month for me.like,there's a lot that has happened in the past in this month.its a month of when i kept blaming myself.it was the month where i have been acting rather foolish,rather odd.

i know its 2011 "wake up!wake up,Li! the past is the past" i'm a bit grown up,so i think back what i just did.i hate my moods these days its too negative.thinking back to what made me smile.haha.that person.

missing

2010-09-04T01:22:00.000+08:00

ok,f@#&.

this friggin hurts.to miss someone and cry.that friggin hurts.

i feel like sinking my teeth arah cd and crush it,bite reality so hard for making me like this.its like torture.but i'm friggin nocturnal.i'm not a morning person.

reading romance books would do no good,it is love all the way to last page.didn't bother the time neither did i bother what i eat,i rather go hungry and run,i'd rather end up sleeping on my running trails and get exposed to the sun.

i'd rather shout seeing a freaking lizard at my front lawn to feel thrilled than missing someone like you dot dunked in a well and there's no way out...
its not suffocation..its just the more you miss 'em the more you felt guilty about yourself for not menaguring ea

cuz you love em so much,and two days is like a while

i love you,ais

to my Beau!

2010-08-29T06:29:00.001+08:00

hey love,hey love,
please wake up,
my eyes are waiting to fall asleep,

please love please love,
i can't get you off my mind,
so,please just open up your eyes,

i don't dare to wake you up,
in a Sunday morning,
but i'm watching over you,
as you sleep,
so i'm wondering if you're,
dreaming about me
cuz i could notstop myself,
from thinking of you,
and smiling,
i can't be discreet,
i need you now,

hey love,hey love,
please wake up,
my eyes are waiting to fall asleep,

please love please love,
i can't get you off my mind,
so,please just open up your eyes,

i love you to say,
that a lot of times,
you make my heart beat,
faster like i'm running,
like an arrow,
to the centre of my aim,
hey,i love you,
and i'm happy i have you,
please don't break my heart,
and

hey love,hey love,
please wake up,
my eyes are waiting to fall asleep,

please love please love,
i can't get you off my mind,
so,please just open up your eyes,

hey love,hey love,
please wake up,
my eyes are waiting to fall asleep,

please love please love,
i can't get you off my mind,
so,please just open up your eyes,

dust off the mites

2010-07-15T02:45:00.000+08:00

today,i feel so good,i mean,i have never felt better,the pain that impaled on my heart every time i see that face is gone.i know the agony was like heart attack,i know it might come again in the future,but,best be feeling well now,then holding a heartache,no?

but i felt so good saying that there was someone to THE PERSON who wants to get with me.there is someone,and that someone is not available.i was actually trying to refer to GOD.hahah.

i miss everything about you.

2010-05-31T05:10:00.000+08:00

colbie caillat - Never told you & escape the fate - Harder than you know

this is the song that i played most of the time.and it is suitable,to my current mood.well,most of the days.it makes me so.....so great.

i've just caught a picture of myself rh webcam earlier yesterday and i cant believe what i see.i look so youthful.with a healthy glow,not FAT,but healthy.like seeing the blue skies and smile

sometimes i'm just self conscious not self centered.

i want to blayar.tho i would be further from someone i love,but,hey,travelling is a passion even he cannot stop.but my mind would stop to think about him saja..haha..those brown-black eyes.

i know,i shouldn't be doing this.i know this seems pathetic.i know i shouldnt be thinking about relationships,but it does not hurt to say that i'm in love and if i have that person,i'll give up everything.

falling in love makes me feel bubbly.and giggly,and random.haha,crazy me.i haven't express a thing and this happens.hahahaha......a person just cannot stop missing it even tho they promise not to.

i am at rizQun.I hate THE Mall.so noisy,so packed with crowds,so,i dont know,i just dislike it.i'm ususally ONE with the crowd but then they get on my nerves.i think i miss Empire.hahaha.i know i said its "An Empire Of Boredom and I Hate It" but i enjoy it now,cuz i fell in loved with it.another factor why i hate the mall,is the aching feeling,maybe within the walls of the mall remains the memoirs of Malia.maybe the mall reminds me of what it used to be.i got over it so well,tapi masani,aku okay lah.

shopping is a must kalau d sini ani.i dunno why tapi aku suka shopping masa ani.for dresses,blouse,tights.but not the labih2 ones.i prefer to buy the ones yang cheap..sal,kalau harganya murah i can buy more than 7 pasang just to get the right amount of limit and shriek about it and talk about it with faiez.(sorry Far,in terms of these i prefer to speak with Faiez as a Fashion consultant)

lastly,the nightmare on elm street was bulls***.i mean like awal2 crita atu lagi udah aku cam...i regret this.i happen to do the hand gesture for F/y for the suspense ending.but i like the part where the story gets nice....ONLY.and Far,sorry aku banyak jalan.cuz aku jalan dri tadi and my flipflops are killing me.and sorry aku ganya seorang yang paling bising rh Cinema ah.especially kalau horror mv,bising th ku tue.maybe next time for movies i should bring a pillow and a blanket...

my blog..hey!!!

2010-02-18T09:44:00.000+08:00

panat perhaps title ku atu.hahhaha.i don't care.so i made up 2 lyrics sudah,this time,i finished the chorus and till the end.

the first one is MY BESTFRIEND,PLEASE SMILE.it is a dedication song for my BFFFs.especially Zizi,because i remembered what i have been through in the past,and i look up to you if there is something i want to say.based on my self experience lah.i can sing it to you guys but i'm trying to find its right beat and edges.might take a month or so

the socond one is SCRAPED HORIZONS,don't expect me to hafal it right now,because i just made it this morning before i went to sleep in 2.30Am.it explains mainly about my feeling at that moment.kinda hard for me to sleep crying to the lyrics.but i will show you guys ASAP.i promise

hello kota kinabalu?

2010-01-27T00:07:00.001+08:00

just gave myself a good stretch and i'm so ready to tell you about my arrival.kami sampai kk around 8peeamm then tunggu in another one hour di dalam airport nya.it's bigger pulang dari brunei's airport,but the good part is i feel like HOME in Brunei,EXTENDED.i feel like lying down rh the middle of the road and say whoa,i fall in love with Sabah already.instead i smile to everyone like the usual me.i even get to wave and say hello to a small boy,tabam,cute,handful,very loud.

should i tell you about my flight?oh god,i feel like one of those LITTLE EINSTEINS in PHDC.as soom as we departed,dari the brunei land masa the aeroplane is slanting (you know,head on 2 o'clock and tail on 8 o'clock),i was saying "AAAAAAAAAAAAA>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>BLAAAASTT OOOFFFFFFFFFFF!" then my mom tgur bawa bebaca.i have to let out that feeling of mine.i know it wants so bad to get out of my chest and make some noise.OH YEAH!but aku baca lah selawat,mudahan saja sampai d sana dengan selamat.haha.but still.no one can stop me from myself,no one.i tell you now,not even the cute bell boy who is carrying our bag to our room can't stop me from being a highly wandering kiddo .and when we slant the head-to-ten-tail-to-four almost sampai to the airport,it was fun,i said "LAAAAANNNNDDDIIINNNG TIIIMMEEE!"

it sounds too much raite?haha...but who cares,d blakang ku nada org.and i was complaining to my mom that i prefered RBA than this AirAsia.for crying out loud,you guys sell products in an aeroplane and charge for providing service.gee,i guess i complained too much about you,eh?haha,well,maybe because its my first time with air asia.i've been flying with the RBA,there's this reciting doa,there's meal provided,enough free space from 1 row with the back row so that,your butt will not reach someone's facewhen you're crossing those three column seats.they also have those stereos.everyone is much pampered with their own seat and bantal that is provided and sometimes,with their own blankey,they don't have to pay for that sort of service too.and there's even space for us to pray.*thanks sultan,ILOVEYOU.YOURE THE BEST.I PROMISE TO GIVE ALL MY HEART AND SOUL TO SERVE FOR THE COUNTRY*

gee,hmm..we got a bit of problem with masa sampai rh hotel...to the receptionist.we were greeted by this man with tux.qel said,ea pakai too much gel,still,uh,eww.i prefer the bell boy.he was like a supa savior of the day.i've came here along with other three.i and my aunt are not alergic to smoking gas or irritants..but our other 2 companions have alergic reactions,which means that,they have asthma,and god,you only know how worried i was when my mom was coughin' the room is not healthy.even if ada spray,it wouldn't help but create a bad unpleasant enviroment to both of them.so,mau nda mau,tepaksa tukar bilik to superior.haha.dayemm,hahaha,so we're sleeping in some what romantic room for two! gawsh.let's see if i can give you a picture of how things are

I Can Write Lyrics Again

2010-01-24T03:59:00.000+08:00

YES!this is the happiest moment of my life.a few months a go i lost it,lost it very well to.i pay the price.i lost my mind by not having anything at all to write because something was limiting me.i feel like roaring up high the mountains!i feel like diving into the deep sea from the tallest point where i could jump.I FEEL INCREDIBLE.i feel like going into a big puddle of dreams that i can achieve.each and every one of it.

maybe next time.i can touch the sky.i have to work with all i can first to reach it..

the law of love

2010-01-24T02:58:00.000+08:00

this is the first Nora Roberts novel i have,i'm not familiar with it at all,it was given to me as a birthday present from my cuzzie,it was a great bunch.*i like it so much even tho you picked it out of the shelf randomly.still,thanks for picking this book,Q,its captivating*when i first saw he cover ,i scrutinize the pinky book.i have no eyes for pink,but i have eyes on a wonderful story.

these sort of novels can be either suspense or romance.but luckily,it's romance,i LOVE romance.there's two stories compiled inthe law of love.one is lawless ,another is the law is a lady.let me narrow i down.they made the right choice by making her one of the bestselling authors around earth.:P

Lawless - Nora Roberts.

original book description:
Half Apache and all man, Jake Redman was more than a match for the wild Arizona Territory. Sarah Conway, on the other hand, was an Eastern lady who belonged anywhere else but on the rugged land Jake loved. But beneath Sarah's ladylike demeanor beat the heart of a true pioneer, a woman he yearned to make his own.

My Report:
Sarah Conway,is one tough women with an eastern civilised demeanor.while Jake Redman is well,quite the opposite.Sarah learn the rough ways of how things were handled in the west,where,her father,lived through almost their lives apart from each other,with the help of a wild man like Jake.

The Law Is A Lady

original book description:
Once Phillip Kincaid fixed his mind on something, he set about getting it. And as soon as he'd stopped in Friendly, New Mexico, he knew the town was the perfect locale for his film. And no-nonsense Sheriff Victoria Ashton looked pretty good to him, too! But Tory was giving Phillip a run for his money - making him all the more determined to show her that even a lady of the law can surrender willingly.to love.

my Report:
wow,i really love this one,i like to think myself as Sheriff Victoria Ashton's character,or maybe someday i could be like her.i tell you now,i think in this book,she's one heck of a great lover.as a lady who abide with the laws,i have to say,this story drives me wild.

so,guys if you're interested to read it somehow,i can lend it to you,you can either send a msg to my inbox.*coverage only available in brunei muara district,because transport is a problem.*you can either,ask a friend that we might know,to pass it along or you can just text me on my wall on fb

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/profile.php?ref=profile&id=691270279

2010-01-20T01:45:00.000+08:00

this ain't a game
you will believe
i've done it once
i am never doing all of it again

im sitting down
i'm typing slow
thinking of words
but i don't even know what to say

i am not(never)
in love with you
neither will i be
when the time comes straight ahead for me

i'm moving fast
i'm slowing down
full of regret here
never wanted anything like this

no!not love!
no,not anymore!
i'm tired,
i'm sick
of what it brings back to me

wow...very exciting.

2010-01-18T04:12:00.000+08:00

ROFLOL.didn't mean to be sarcastic,but it proves well.i dont' even want to talk to my uncle lapas ni.sheesh.i fel like kicking them.only i don't like to face them,remember?i hate being a PGGMB .mark my words.you will regret.

that was...i dunno how to say.it was cliche`?

2010-01-17T03:10:00.000+08:00

i swear,i feel like i've done very stupid things in life.and i dunno if deserve anything.i ran away from love.i despise it,i hate it.i don't want to repeat the same mistakes i've done.i never want it again.i'm disgusted by it.and i can't believe myself that i'm waiting for someone,and i can't believe that i'm willing to do that,deep down i know i don't deserve that.i feel like am Queen without it,i feel better, i feel stronger ,i feel like a free soul.i feel fire lit up the skies towards me,when that mistakes comes.never again.never again that mistake.it may eat me alive but i will never do it again.

i regret to the bottom of my life.

Brunei,
i love you so much.i really feel like a phobia person without your enviroment.without the chicken poop smeel and the daun pandan smell,and the aligator that breeds around my house,the naughty cat that gets on my nerve.oh,nvm that,you get it,that i was in love with you.but brunei,i'm sorry,i shamed you,i feel like i am waiting anytime now to be exiled.i was always known as a patriotic person,and i dont' want to be someone who is not my .to erase this idntknowwhoyouareanymore identity,but it's just not worth it

i know,i seem sad.
from a composer to this.
lets just say i'm loosing my mind.
and i'll try to do more lyrics.and finish it in time

Christian Bautista - Invincible (Official Music Video) HQ

2010-01-16T04:36:00.001+08:00

song of my life,now

Jeritan Batinku

2010-01-15T03:37:00.001+08:00

yes,i love thhis song so muchy muchy

mista cb,i love your song

2010-01-15T00:51:00.000+08:00

cristian bautista, people.he's amazing,his music nice.he has a stage way of showing his love and his music.i wish i can have his autograph one day.

3 in the morning-sebelas januari 2010

2010-01-13T21:33:00.000+08:00

Jelas,masih ada sisa-sisanya. Namun,rutin tidurku terganggu.Apakah ianya kerana statusku?Atau,aku tidak dapat tidur kerana menghitung hari untuk bertemu dengan pemilik senyuman yang manis sekali yang pernah aku jumpa di seluruh dunia lagi.Seandainya tadi,walaupun sekejap mata sahaja,dia juga turut melihat aku benar-benar,dan degupan hatinya membalas degupan hatiku.ataupun,dia menoleh kembali untuk menetap wajahku lagi.bahagianya dunia.sungguh,menawan sekali senyuman yang di ukir pada bibir merah semula jadi jejaka itu,dapat ku gambarkan.

Masih bermain di fikiranku,seorang lelaki yang tinggi berpakaian cara melayu berwarna oren memakai songkok hitam segak dan tampan yang padan dengan kulitnya yang berwarna putih yang kelihatan amat halus.begitulah kali pertama aku melihatnya dan berdepan dengannya dengan senyuman ikhlas itu,dirinya sangat menggoda di waktu malam dan aku Cuma sempat bersalaman sahaja dengannya.sentuhan yang kecil itu adalah yang sangat bererti bagiku.Aku mencari peluang yang terbaik untuk bertanyakan siapakah dirinya pada malam itu tetapi sayangnya,ia tidak kesampaian.tadi,pada 10 Januari 2010,aku menemuinya kembali setelah hampir beberapa bulan ku melihatnya,dengan pakaian cara melayu yang sama,masih seperti yang ku bayangkan,seperti dia mencuri nafas ku buat seketika,walaupun dari sudut jauh.aku tidak menyangka,dia akan berada di sana.

Andainya aku tahu namamu dan memiliki potret mu,itu pun sudah cukup bagi ku sesudah kau memaut hatiku dengan keperibadian mu,wahai jejaka yang ku minati.Ah...sesungguhnya kau memiliki perasaan yang sama.namun,aku tahu,amat mustahil kau dapat membalasnya.terlalu banyak persoalan yang muncul di dalam minda ku,jiwaku,hatiku.apa aku mampu menyembunyikan semua ini dengan topeng kulit ku?Insya-Allah.

P.s. happy monthsary

Perempuan Suci

2010-01-12T14:47:00.000+08:00

okay,here's the cover of the book.trust me.the english translation was much better,because the way the translation goes was like,the modern side of classic malay.here's the sipnosis(paragraf baru).to readers,if you want to borrow the book please msg me on facebook NURUL ALIAH or just leave a comment on this post

Zarri Bano, seorang perempuan Muslim nan jelita, berkali-kali menolak lamaran laki-laki sampai akhirnya ia bertemu Sikander, yang memikat hatinya pada pandangan pertama. Namun, ketika Jafar, adik lelaki Zarri Bano, penerus martabat ayah mereka satu-satunya, tewas dalam kecelakaan, sang ayah memaksa Zarri Bano menjadi Perempuan Suci. Ini berarti ia tidak boleh menikah, karena satu-satunya yang boleh ia nikahi adalah Al-Quran. Api asmaranya bersama Sikander pun dipaksa padam, justru pada saat mereka benar-benar ingin mereguk cinta. Yang lebih menyakitkan, dalam puncak kekecewaannya, Sikander malah mengawini Ruby, adik Zarri Bano. Demikianlah, selama bertahun-tahun, kesedihan, amarah, dan perang batin Zarri Bano tersembunyi rapi di balik burqa hitam yang membungkus tubuhnya, dan membatasinya dengan dunia luar. Terjadi di negeri Pakistan yang eksotis, novel yang banyak mendapat pujian ini memaparkan secara melodramatis peliknya realitas seorang perempuan yang hidup di tengah kungkungan tradisi yang dibangun oleh lak-laki.

tango time!

2010-01-09T10:28:00.001+08:00

i love tango,it makes me feel sexy.very sexy.so enjoy tango.haha.it's feeling passion ans sexy time for me!

very soft,lets see if we can edge this.catch this next one,its more deep and sexy.oh yes i'm into this.i love the dance.and it has a soul(in my dictionary it means real,alive,tense,dramatic,heartthrobbing)

and i cannot put aside the twins's their valentine's dance song.aww.....romantic lagu ani eh...i feel like grabbing a guy to dance with me.well,yeah,maybe just onbe guy

it's you

2010-01-09T09:02:00.000+08:00

i love this song.i really felt this song.loopy,if you're out there,if you see this.i dedicate this song for you.watch it okay?

Dance-a-lot-adore

2010-01-07T10:21:00.000+08:00

gotta hit that dance-a-lot-adore,
see what he got poppin on the hood,
been dreaming of the dance-alot-adore
cant keep this all to myself,
i dreamed of dancing on with him,
doing a nasty move on the floor,
yeah ,dance-a-lot-adore

dance-a-lot-adore,
remember when you hold my hands,
leap me high above the air,
underneath the light focused to us,
mr.dance-a-lot-adore,
i may have not know of your name,
still i wish that you were real,
cuz you,owe me our dance,

bother-er

2009-12-30T16:53:00.000+08:00

baru-baru ani lah,sasak ku wah laki-laki ani.cam nada di tanyanya kn kawin aku.kn aga kemari tia,apa tia.aku nda mau wah eh!PAHAM KO KAH?!tarus tarus lagi tu make a statement,aku mau kawin sama "prince of brunei" pasal he got EVERYTHING.

dude!ko pikir just because ea ada everything(yg kau cakap ah) aku maukan ea kh?do you think aku mau sangat kah kawin sama anak sultan?!i'm not that kind of girl who go frantic about my sultanate's son.i only respect them,not LIKE them.cuz,i know my world just go around fine without any prince or any guy trying to get with me.

so,please.i don't need that when i got 2 years to study for my A level soon.I am so not talking to you if you annoy me more.back off!i'm never ever talking to you after that.what is wrong with living my life without you guys flirting around?

i hate you - 2pm

2009-11-26T05:04:00.001+08:00

goes to the person i hate.i hate you i hate you."niga miwuh jookgetda!"

yeah! aku taruh ni as profile song ku.i hate you.to pieces,to death,to bila-bila even though sakit ati ku,kau kan peduli,dui~ luan sibuk with other things!hh

niga miwuh jookgetda

Hanbun duh neh mameul arajwuh
Nul wihan noonmooreul badajwuh
Sarangeun barajido anatdun
Ggeutnan yehgi da jinan yehgi yeah~

Niga miwuh jookgetda (irun niga duh)
Nehga shiruh jookgetda (irun nehga duh)
Hanbunman duh naleul dun hanbun duh balabwa
Now I'm crying

Niga mibda joogeul mankeum niga mibda
Shilta michidolok nehga shilta nul...
Irun nehga nan nan shilda
Mibda joogeul mankeum niga mibda
Shilta michidolok nehga shilta nul...
Irun nehga nan nan shilta

Dorasun ni mameul mumchwuhjwuh
Nul boneun noonbicheul badajwuh
Sarangeun barajido anatdun
Ggeutnan yehgi da jinan yehgi, yeah~

Niga miwuh jookgetda (irun niga duh)
Nehga shilluh jookgetda (irun nehga duh)
Hanbunman duh naleul dun hanbun duh barabwa
Now I'm crying

Niga mibda joogeul mankeum niga mibda
Shilta michidolok nehga shilta nul...
Irun nehga nan nan shilda
Mibda joogeul mankeum niga mibda
Shilta michidolok nehga shilta nul...
Irun nehga nan nan shilta

Baby come back to my world
Come back and be my girl
Geuluhchi aneumyun naneun nul jookdolok miwuhhal gul ara
Nul saranghetdun maeumi mi oomeulo modoo da baggwigi juneh
Dolawa uhsuh negeh jalmot hetdago uhsuh yehgiheh

Hanbun duh nareul balabwa noon machoogo
Hanbun duh nareul anabwa ib machoogo
Hanbun duh hanbun duh naleul barabwa
Na na nal barabwa

Niga mibda joogeul mankeum niga mibda
Shilda michidolok nehga shilda nul...
Ilun nehga nan nan shilda
Mibda mibda shilta shilta
Michidolok nul... ilun nehga nan nan shilta

english translation

[JH] acknowledge my heart once more
Accept these tears that are for you
Not even expecting love,
The ended story, the past story, yeah~

[CS] I hate you to death (even more you, who are like this)
I hate myself to death (even more me, who is like this)
[NK] just one more time, one more time, look at me
Now I'm crying

[JS] I hate you so much I could die, I hate you
I hate myself so much I could go crazy, I hate myself
I I hate myself for being like this
[JB] I hate you so much I could die, I hate you
I hate myself so much I could go crazy, I hate myself
I I hate myself for being like this

[WY] stop your heart that's turned away
Accept this gaze that is looking at you
Not even expecting love,
The ended story, the past story, yeah~

[CS] I hate you to death (even more you, who are like this)
I hate myself to death (even more me, who is like this)
[NK] just one more time, one more time, look at me
Now I'm crying

[JS] I hate you so much I could die, I hate you
I hate myself so much I could go crazy, I hate myself
I I hate myself for being like this
[JB] I hate you so much I could die, I hate you
I hate myself so much I could go crazy, I hate myself
I I hate myself for being like this

[TC] baby, come back to my world
Come back and be my girl
If you don't, know that I'll hate you to death
Before this heart that has loved you turns into hate
Come back, quickly. that you're sorry, please, tell me

[NK] look at me once more, locking our gazes
Hold me once more, locking our lips
Once more, once more, look at me
Look at me, me, me

[JS] I hate you so much I could die, I hate you
I hate myself so much I could go crazy, I hate myself
I I hate myself for being like this
[JB] hate you, hate you, hate you, hate you
Enough to go crazy, I hate myself for being like this

wish i can tell you something but i do not have anythign to tell you

2009-11-20T04:45:00.000+08:00

fun part today.had a GREAT feast
dapat chat with ehem2.
dapat joget.
dapat dngar lagu warkah buat laila
dapat dngar lagu ternyata-melly & yann kookinky
dapat a new friend,
dapat LUV,
dpt msges,
dapat chat with cousins,
dapat poke auntie,
dapat get SEKSI *hahahaha

reel it back

2009-11-20T03:54:00.000+08:00

reel it back,
homie got my number on his cell,
trying his best to get on me,

reel it back,
shawty haven't answered my call,
hoping she would go out with me,

reel it back,
i am up hoping best to unwind,
he better be so good to me,

reel it back,
shawty told me to come and get it,
so i bring around the heat

jay sean- stolen....my favie

2009-11-20T03:23:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gQGzBlYFWog

Churaliya he (Stolen) [x10]

You were my eyes when i couldn't see,
you were my air when i couldn't breathe,
but you always knew what you meant to me,
(yeaah.ah,ah)
You were my strength when i was down,
and you made me humble when i wouldn't bow,
I held on to your promise that you'd be around,
(ah,ah...ah,ah)

Where were you when i was alright,
tell me, did you knew I was alright,
you, left me thinking I'd be alright,
wont you come back to me,
Ohhh..
It's crazy but i'm falling apart,
It's crazy how your leaving me scarred,
It's crazy girl wherever you are,
you stole, my heart

It's crazy but I'm going insane,
feeling lost confused and ashamed,
It's crazy, hope your feeling my pain,
you stole, my heart

(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,

I was feeling lost in my own world,
neglecting your needs only once girl,
If only we could try again once more,
ohhh..(Ohh..)
Now It's the same sad story that we all know,
how lovers make mistakes watch it all blow,
now i don't wanna be the one to let it all go.... nooo

[Chorus]

(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,
(ah,ah...ah,ah..)

No man can live without blood running through his veins,
(through his veins)
and it's hard to remember the summer now here is rain
I don't know how much longer that i can wait
It's a thin line... between love and hate,
Oh-whoa-whoaaaa...

It's crazy but i'm falling apart,
It's crazy how your leaving me scarred,
It's crazy girl wherever you are,
you stole, my heart

It's crazy but I'm going insane,
feeling lost confused and ashamed,
It's crazy, hope your feeling my pain,
you stole, my heart

(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,
(ah,ah...ah,ah..)

(Stolen)
Just like a moment....
(Stolen)
you never owned it,
(Stolen)
you took away my heart,
(ah,ah...ah,ah..)

temper management

2009-11-14T09:15:00.000+08:00

aku tau there are times aku marah nda tantu pasal.if it happens to show.well,i absolutly have no perfect control of it.i wish there is something or someway i can just get out of brunei and get it over with.THIS IS NOT ABOUT FAMILY PROBLEM PEOPLE OR MY CURRENT RELATIONSHIP,BUT MORE LIKELY OF SOMEONE JUST HIT THE SPOT.*hiss*the person is so blind (don't mean to say that the person is buta banar-banar)i just feel irritated wish there's a better way to wish that,that person never existed in my life!

somehow that wish can't come true.hurts here,hurts there.sheesh.why am i complaining anyway?wish there's a better way to put it.d**n! buat lirik ku dulu eh!

i have no rights in this world,to say such words,
to say that i really love you,
no obligations other than,watching your back,
that's what i always try to do,
in this world,i hope that the ONE forbids,
me~ from.

rememberin' your name
rememberin' your face
rememberin' about those silly mistakes,
remember bout your heart,
those girls you fell in love,
remember how you caught my heart away,

lets think that i believe,
that you guys were close friends,
then why did you say
you love your wife,

may god give you the strength,
may god give you forgiveness,
i know that these two
are what i can't give you

i lost my sanity,
my own self control,
i knew that she is with you right now,
to stay.

I miss you

2009-11-14T06:23:00.000+08:00

it's hard "here" when you miss someone.payah jua eh.so i've just made this story while i was not on9,it's about two best-friends,Darren and Sam(short fro Samira),Darren confessed to Sam he was has A Half-Witch Ancestry ever since their childhood days,while Sam kept her identity as a vampire secret,and waited for the right moment to tell her bestfriend.then there's a twist,adayadayay.when i finished the whole sorty i'll name it Daffodil book 1,vol 1,preety nasteh badass productions

i need to go to the ocean and feel the cold water all around me

2009-11-06T15:22:00.000+08:00

i need to stay in the water for atleast 10 secs.
my whole body is painful.
my study's distrupted.
cannot concentrate well.
gahhhh!

shhh.....oh not again this ain't suppose to happen to me.LOL!

2009-10-26T14:37:00.000+08:00

i hate love.you get it? sigh,i just keep wishing to myself,to not fall in love or to have a feeling .so this is what you call as sakit sendiri.you never asked for it but it happened in front of your eyes,as if,you're decieving yourself.nobody can compare,to the beautiful chocolate eyes,with beautiful eyelashes,with thin pink lips,with mr potato's nose,with not curly but tangled black hair,with a very funny smile,with natural blushers,with a black warm jacket,with a warm hug,with a warm heart,with a Pcd-when i grow up ringtone when we met the second time.who just know how to almost made me slipped,who i adore top to bottom,who made me pissed,who made me just come back for more,who is always around,who knows me so deep,who PMS-s at times and attack,but like i care of the attack,it just steams me up,but i'm trying my best to understand the person.who is with me through almost all chapters of my life this year.who's name is like a billboard number 1 music in me.who's voice,ah~,that's what i miss,really miss no matter in a fight or in a normal conversation,it's the voice,that is magical,melodious.oh god,don't let me start with the laughter,it brings joyful tears in the heart.yeah,if the person is danger i am trouble.yes,i'm always troubled,nobody can make me rehabilitate.

i know some people who can guess already who that one person is.i know they will compare the person with my description,then they would say "ea kn?" it's my description,i adore of this person,admired this person,have myself captivated in fascination of this person.have my ever so violent heart beaten like crazy to have met this person.like its like,hate its hate,love its love. i'm not obsessed with the person.but trust me when i say,i'm a bit lifeless without that person in my life.

malia

2009-10-25T12:15:00.000+08:00

malia ku,
kau lah keindahan,
di pandangan mata,
diriku.

kau berikan,
ketenangan daku,
kebanggaan hati,
yang dipertahani.

semakin jauh,
masa akan jalan,
kau tetap dengan ku,

pemecah kesunyian,

tak perlu kita,
bersama waktu kini,
pun aku kan
sentia.sa mnjaga mu,

ku minta,
kau simpan
kasih mu,
murni mu
cinta mu ,
didalam,
hati mu,

agarkan,
ianya,
abadi,
pada mu,
tentang ki,
sah kita,
dahulu

secantik namamu,
malia ku sayang,
jangan menitisi
air mata,

di malam! dan pagi mu,
di situ lah ku,
akan berada,
bersama kamu

sesungguhnya ..
seind.ah~ dirimu..
cinta mu slamanya,
pada.ku~
malia

description:this song goes to the person who does not exist but combines as one in two people.it representrs something beautiful.its very meaningful and i have been requested to make this lyric.i would really appreciate it if you take your time understanding the whole thing and be sure to give comments if you have any questions about the lyric.

i should be happy,but why does it hurt inside.

2009-10-25T11:05:00.000+08:00

it really hurts inside.i just dunno.i'm happy but i feel like another scar just got marked inside my heart.i speak nothing of it.can tell no one who or what is the cause for it.sigh.hate this situation as how i have in the past.i suffer alone.that is my rule and that is my promise.

the last time i had a fight.

2009-10-24T10:18:00.000+08:00

it was really nasty.i cannot recall how many times i cry myself to the night.the pain was obviously,minor.the one in the heart hurts most.too bad,i keep coming back for more.

men,they don't know how attractive they are even when they they don't intend to be

2009-10-24T09:45:00.000+08:00

haha.saja wah, if i were to create a discussion on it.well, i have to agree.especially the photogenic ones,they are strikingly good.you can see it from their eyes,and complexion.

anyway,about my topic.it's true,sometimes if i happen to see a real catch,i stare so long to that person and look away.but they won't captivate my heart that easily.

something is wrong with me today.i get the feeling that something is.i dunno what the heck it is,but it is some real thing.

diperdayai

2009-10-22T17:01:00.000+08:00

berjaga,jaga-lah kau ketika,
membuat,suatu pilihan,
kerana ku pernah,
berada dalam,
situasi begitu

fikiran,ku berserabut,
dalam-dilema,untuk memilih ,
mana mugkin dapat,
aku bezakan,
kasih sayang diriku,

ingin,saja ku lewati,
tetapi,harus ku fahami,
ini bukanlah,
masalah terbesar,
yang pernah ku hadapi,

tidak,menjawab soalan mu,
tak bermakna,aku yg bisu,
tidak dapat menjawab soalan,
yang kau anggap,
begitu mudah.

kalau selama,
ini kamu,
percaya akan diriku,
kenapa harus sekarang aku,
kau bilang begitu,

aku terasa,
diperdayai,
dipermainkan,
dengan kwan ,
yang ku percayai.

haha...just maade it up wal ani....the rest of it is still in my mind...ok ?

i miss my brothers

2009-10-22T16:13:00.000+08:00

yes,not my blood brothers,but my brothers,my best men.i miss them,tho this morning i met Naz,tapi kan,it just doesn't seem complete,without zizi,ikki and saf.the ones yang ada tadi is adiib,muffle(jid),and naz.i know i'm the only girl in that clique,but who cares?they're nice,very creative,clever,don't mind swearing d dpn ku,funny,good actors.

wonder whre those three have been,ah?
tho,zz's close to my house but,he's busy packing.
ikki,he's also busy,ntah bhapa kh ia,to he looks like a smarty pants student when he tuck in his shirt masa english..
saf,ohh my GOD,he looks so different with that songkok and tuck in...seriously...what the heck...i cannot get over his new hair-do(bth plng udah but he looks kinda clear but his usual hair do is always something rather samseng?) and now this...it's too O.O.i feel like freaking out,but that's not my nature... so i just act cool,like dorg jua.lagipun dorg yang ajar...

they act cool~ haha...the only girl in the clique...still brings laughter to me till today.like,all of them are older than me,but the thing is,i'm always protecting brother ikki,only when he is near....

but they're not bad,they don't harass me,they are really polite.

malia

2009-10-22T11:46:00.000+08:00

now this is my favourite story.a great name too tho.sends me to the memory at the beach...feeeling the sand on my skin...sink in the sand....laughing at my own state..it's not a boring sight...you can shout anything you want...you can laugh..it's so enjoyable...only those who think that the beach is a bore will never find the excitement

elvis presley- summer kisses winter tears

2009-10-22T11:18:00.000+08:00

somehow,i dunno why i got a feeling i like it.it just calms my mind.so as ne-yo's songs.i got a thing for good old values....because sometimes new sad songs are cold hearted dikit.more emo lah.

crazy me!

2009-10-05T14:04:00.000+08:00

i'm falling in love again.i hate every time that i'm like this.i hate this feeling.so much.every time it's like this i feel like i want to cry.i hate this feeling,but the way it feels very nice and what it brings.god,no,never in my life will i admit to him that i am.i mean,i have someone.and this someone means something to me.

i cannot control myself in situations like this.

anyway.it's not the time.i got lots of others to think about.i mean,things.ok.yeh,the 2111's coming up nda batah lagi.
man..kalau december baik jua.

;speechless states [expressing a view]

2009-09-27T21:54:00.000+08:00

;to loopy

i have speechless states i hate to mention them to you,because it just felt wrong.if before i felt comfortable telling you anything,now i felt very tense.and to fix it?i dunno,posibilities like that may come,but we wasted it.

today,you wrote 1201 on your nick,what was i suppose to react,i felt a tinge of jealousy,and 1201?it shocked me,it reminds me of my own sister.i feel like i want to laugh,i feel like i want to cry but i felt most like i wish i never knew that and just stay away from you.because now that i had,i had no choice but to live with it.

i lost you.i know when,i know where.but i really lost you this time.i don't want anything more then just to express what i wanted to say.if i had one wish i wish to go back to time and tell you i love you,but,it's too late now and and at that moment the relationship ended.

and the only "thing" that i can talk it thru with is that red bracelet.it never gave me an answer but it gave me something much more valuable.

1st day raya

2009-09-21T15:19:00.000+08:00

not a bad start of syawal tho.but a bad start for me to get pinched by the face by abang alif.eeekkkk,now i am the chubby one?
nyalih ku waaaa....

to siapa saja yang membaca.jangan lupa melelapkan mata sebaik sahaja anda tidak berada di khalyak ramai.selamat hari raya aidilfitri,maaf zahir dan batin.jangan lupa matikan suis lampu anda selepas ianya pecah.jangan lupa menyalakan bunga api,dan memarakkan semangat raya sehinggalah anda merasa keterlauan pada 1145 malam jangan lupa membaca bismillah dalam apa sahaja perkara yang anda bakal lakukan.dan jangan lupa...rock steady!pakai tali keledar anda,jika esok anda ingin meminang.

dengan ini,saya istiharkan,blog ini,boleh dilawat bila2 masa

2009-09-16T12:12:00.000+08:00

in love again,
finally i found some one to keep,
my heart again,
somebody to help me see,
what is love again,
the true feelings in your heart,
i'm in love again .
oh i'm in love again

this is the new lyric,just a sneak preview on it,not much to tell,it would be a nice song soon.it's a confession of someone who's been out of it,who received an urgent wake up call,and needs to get a hold of something new,either feeling it,touching it,tasting it,hearing it,smelling it or seeing it.and i know that,being in love is something we all cannot resist,even me myself,i cannot control my own feelings when i fell in love,but then again,the consequences are always coming near,but,when 2 unite as 1,what more can you do?

no new songs yet

2009-09-16T12:09:00.000+08:00

hakim insisted me to make an album.my other cuzzies got involved with it too.still,i had my doubts.would it sell,would it make people listen.would people be interested.
i go to si kiu,bet like hell ia nda interested,i go to dee fo shaw ia ckap Shut up.
i go to mam and dad,uh..no encouragement.

i have heard artists like HIL made a duet with samantha mumba(sorry.the spelling.)hill himself,yeah,he cute,from the p2f,but i don't dig him,but i dig his music.

anyway,music's kinda on the low nowdays and school starts tomorrow.me hate school,me like to read books and study in school,me hate LLLOOOOOOOOONNNGGGG days.me want to meet me gossip guys.me can't wait fo 645 tumoro.

i've watched pucca a lot these days.and i gave a face when pucca gets a chance to peck garu or kiss him.and pucca;you rock when you save the day.keep the episodes comin'
i'd love to watch it.

loopy

2009-09-14T21:22:00.000+08:00

ok,i was so mad,the day when the fight grew tense.i felt an urge to cry,but as a damn girl,i hold on to every last act and word and did not lose my mind to do so.but it keeps coming and i wish my damn phone was right beside me so that i can call over to my best friends,they know better how to make me crack a smile.cause this man,make me feel like a fool,and as i was told,if someone treat you like a fool,he/she does not deserve to be called as a friend.

say no more.i don't want to talk to him,he's like an Offensive Rakish Turk on my list masani.i bet he does this on purpose,to get rid of me once and for all.i don't need to know of that,to feel that.oh well,thank you Ellan,to the rescue,for being concerned and understanding and warning me to just forget him.

but dear cuz,it's hard to forget him,even tho it is easy to act normal and the sort of i don't need a man,hush-hush thing going around,but sometimes,it's just my qada and qadar,in another words,he's a bastard and there is not a day so far that i don't miss thinking of him.

and after the fight,it proves to me i could break my own rules(duh~ i'm pro on that one already).and it also states to me i can be either good or bad in this world depending on myself and how people take me as.i feel something new,i feel highly flamable,and i like that.

if i say to myself that i don't hate him,but he's my worst enemy.that would be good to know.but,with some people like him in this world,and we share so much with each other,but we dunno how to live up those good old values,and it is left like that might turn out to be what we are right now.

am i talking without a connection with my words?

i know a few things tho,if i happen to see him,i would stare and get stunned first,then feel my own heart pounding,then flush away those nice intentions with madness.then I'd run away.simple,right???if he tries to block me over i promise to all the readers over here,he's going to be titanic sunk down to the Atlantic ocean.

yes,aku marah,and finally got fed up with GUYS that are harsh

2009-09-03T22:23:00.000+08:00

i am so mad,and at times like this,i don't even want to talk to them.and might as well avoid them! i told my cousin about this and he said to me i should just forget about guys yang cematu.

i am tired and hurt.why hurt?because the GUY that i LOVE (painful experience) piss me off to the max,and disown my trust.yes,once again it strucks.When i reach this level,there is no turning back or giving second chances.tho i might forgive him,but i will byu any chance avoid talking to him.

i may not know who ever read this,but for the moment,and for the record ,i am single of 3 months plus,i feel insecure everytime someone that i have just known proposes,i love goth,i hate my ex(just two,latest),i am anti-pengatil,i am anti-racist,i am anti-poklens and i can blow up if you say something nasty,because my all-time people know i am sensitive and secretive and i don't speak too much.

and mal.if you seek ae you.i never blamed the girl,at all,i just don't want to talk to you,you are nasteh.you may never know why i'm acting like this,but i may say this as "you have just crossed the line".oh,yeah,i don't think there is a need to explain everything,you're quite familiar when there was a time that i was acting...JUST LIKE THIS.

to the girl,get well soon,life 's surface is always rough and tough,you'll get used to it,don't be scared to face it..

updates.
-on sat:mjlis menyungkaikan urang....
-for tommorw.revs or sleeping or meet mr.lex and the other guys in the class.
-physics.sampai 7.30 to 10.00pm...crazy...!

bye all...abis mood ku.

song for teacher's day.bsmngat aku ah

2009-08-22T14:00:00.000+08:00

descripition:
since today is the first day of ramadhan and i feel that teachers day and israk mikraj is coming around..so aku buat lirik tcr's day lah.i don't know how to make a lyric of israk mikraj,but if i do oi will be sure to post it like my other lyrics..

so here goes

lyric:
Of everyday I’m going,
Of every step I’m taking,
You’re always there to lead me,
Supporting when I need me,

I may have been not good,
Perseverance you should,
Today you stand by me,
To remember your ways,

The days you correct me
The days you shelter me,
The days of laughter in your face,
The days when you teach me,

How do I re-pay it ,
Even a thank you isn’t enough,
A good result might never give,
What you really wanted,

I may have been selfish,
I never knew anything,
Or about your sacrifice,
What would you would do for me,

Excellence in your mind,
The harshness you define,
This the way that’s better,
Stick to it and don’t let it fly away

waktu - waktu terharu

2009-08-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

aku ingat masih last yr,msa sembahyang jemmah di skulah menengah pap msna.kmi ni kana suruh besalam=salam lah ngan cikgu.

tapi masa besalam atu sma,liat-liat muka cikgu kan....cam banyak dusa ku rh dorg bah.barat rasanya tangan ku kn salam pasal rasanya cam dosa atu nda kn dapat cikgu atu maafkan.

i was filled with regret i feel that i don't deserve to have touched their hand....or hold it

banyak dusa ku rh dorg.sikit lagi kan menangis di dapan dorg tapi nasib baik aku dapat tahan.guilty berabis ku.bsmbhyg sama dorg.kana ajar oleh dorg.kana advice oleh dorg.....budi dorg atu slama ani alum pernah ku kanang.....terlalu banyak...

cikgu~ minta ampun minta maaf ku bnyk2 halalkan minum makan,pelajaran ku cikgu

2009-08-14T10:38:00.000+08:00

ani lirik ku terbaru,aku buat tarus chat ngan urg urg yang aku sayang.sorry kalau nda abis,

you make my heart,pumping,
roll,jumping,
fast beating,
i may not know how,
you did so,
but it just
feels so good,

i may have life,
and the necklace,
and heels,
and myself,
but i have to admit,
that i must,
have you to myself,

community

2009-08-02T09:54:00.000+08:00

hi~
payah wah kalau ada kawan yg nda pandai serious ani...beibun saja tiap ari....

love fest

2009-07-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

description...
random,hopefully nada urg offended....

So you hate em, but you love em,
And you say it feels so good,
I wanna laugh off your commitment,
But I think I really shouldn’t,
You see there is just no such thing as,
I hate you as I love you
So my point is straight and clear,
And I think you’ve caught in a flu,

There’s a love fest in town,
There’s a love fest in town.
And I think you’re joining the parade,
Of the love fest in town,
Once you’re in it you’re thrilled,
Once you’re out you’re broken,
It’s going to take more than hours to heal,
From the love fest in town

When you look him in the eyes,
It makes you melt deeply inside,
This is crazy, something new,
Never have felt this way before,
You admitted honestly,
Like confessions on a stage,
with the whole world staring back at you,
for titanic you go.

There’s a love fest in town,
There’s a love fest in town.
And I think you’re joining the parade,
Of the love fest in town,
Once you’re in it you’re thrilled,
Once you’re out you’re broken,
It’s going to take more than hours to heal,
From the love fest in town

Confessions of a hotelier/waiter/waitress/maid/coffee boy

2009-07-12T09:58:00.001+08:00

To live in a world full of bliss is nothing to those who has experience a daily routine over and over again. an adventure is only karma. to others, it is marvelous, magical, an experience like no other. Of course, we’re a bit clueless. Why such normality to us is another person’s most graceful experience? Why the expressions in their face are is something we don’t normally have of our own. the joy, the most angelic smile. That’s my life. To see these faces pass through in and out.
Some of them have been an honor to serve, some just never seem to realize. I was trained to give a warm welcome to these jolly joyous people. I and my friends are actors. A big smile in our face and a courtesy bow are part of our act. It is part of our performance and manner as long as we are to remain by this act in this such luxurious place in a view to these people.
We have tried our best, fighting our bad habit, nevertheless hide the tiredness, provide with the best of the energy we have with the utmost ridiculous requests that these people have. Yes, we are annoyed, requests to requests and big mess, it is us who clean up the dirt. Never could we complain, but we could mumble out our words. A complain means a great disaster ahead our career. Landing us to grieve danger. The superiority of these people might make us face the deadly chamber of the person who is authorized above us.
A better resolution for us is to face these angelic daredevils without hesitation. We have to pray to always care the dignity of this luxurious place in lieu of ours.

sufferance

2009-07-12T09:42:00.000+08:00

to me this is a very heartfelt song.i have no idea why,but it just came out of me.
but don't let that stop you from reading it.it's too deep but just read it maybe it represents you,maybe someone you know.here it goes

sufferance

Let me die, let me die serving for you,
Let me cry, cuz I won’t see you,

I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine through this all,
I’m not lying cuz I am with you,

No don’t die, I cannot live without you,
Please hold on, or let me join you

Life is nice, the colors are shown by you,
And It is dull without your presence.

Let me die, let me die serving for you,
Let me cry cuz I won’t see you,

At this moment, I only wanted you,
I will stay cuz I’m meant for you,

I see death, is coming around to wipe us,
Please hold me, I want to stick with you,

I will do,whatever as long as you’re with me,
If it’s bonding my soul,yeah I would that too,

I know that,this might happen to me,
It’s like that,when I first saw you

Let me die,let me die serving for you,
Let me cry cuz I can’t see you,

my current thoughts

2009-07-12T09:35:00.000+08:00

Ever since the 3rd week of the holiday. I feel guilty, a bit selfish though, and my guess is that it’s time to just express. No matter how many lyrics I posted, this one was in the edge. Something I never dream of, but think of and feel of. I have to be right. My kind of taste in love is the one and only. From a simple thought, I convert it to lyrics, Then think of the feeling as it’s song.
This is a summary. The honest summary after those heart stabbing lyrics.maybe someday i am taking this back,but no,it's a thought to share with other people who feels the same way,but i will never know. After just a few days of recovery, after a month of pain, so, I present you…my current thoughts.

Lyric;
Since the day you said to me
It ain’t the same,
I think you’re right,
We’re acting like one,

And I’m living my whole days
Without you,
Thinking of you,
And what I should do,

Honestly I tried my best to pull
Your strings,
To make you jealous,
I guess, I’ve done my part

Trying to move on like
It’s nothing,
I am struggling,
To find someone,

Somehow now, I wish I never met you,
Or even fall to the depths of your love,
And I hate the fact that I really love you,
And it hurts us to ever come again,
I’m not sure if we could ever survive it,
I don’t want to mess up your whole life,

No I cannot bring much more pain to you,
Cuz I know you can’t take it away,
Yes I assure you I still had that promise,
And I will let it be buried with me,
I know I cannot live without your presence,
Doesn’t take me long to discover it

my fAvourite song.by camilla

2009-06-29T21:36:00.000+08:00

You, song collector
Give me reasons to live
You, the owner of my dreams
Stay in them and make me feel
And so in your mystery be able to discover
The eternal feeling

You, with the moon in your head
The place where begins
The motive and the hope of my existence
Only you, I want it to be you
My madness, my ease and my delirium, my compass and my path
Only you, I want it to be you
And I put my destiny in your hands because
I live to be forever, forever, forever
With you my love...

You, song collector
A thousand emotions are for you
You, what I dreamt of my whole life
Stay in it and make me feel
And so transform the magic in you
In a soul's breath

You, with the moon in your head
The place where begins
The motive and the hope of my existence
Only you, I want it to be you
My madness, my ease and my delirium, my compass and my path
Only you, I want it to be you
And I put my destiny in your hands because
I live to be forever with you...

There's no room left inside me any more
You've filled every corner with you
It's because of you that with time my soul
Feels different...

Only you, I want it to be you
My madness, my ease and my delirium, my compass and my path
Only you, I want it to be you
And I put my destiny in your hands because
I live to be forever, forever, forever
With you my love...

"i dedicate this song for,the person i like ever since i was 11,"-al el 1216

seems to be

2009-06-28T04:24:00.000+08:00

what must i do?
think about you?
come on we've been there a lot.

what can i do?
for you now?
i've betrayed you way too much

i cannot fight this,
i wonder,
god could you help me through this

i really don't want to,
hurt you,
i want to sail away from this

im moving on,love
it's not a bad fact,
it's what i do ,
for my,living.

description:
this is what i found on my other blog,yes,i have deleted it.it's really a tough decision.i may have written out my whole heart on that blog but now,it just doesn't seem to matter anymore.the shops closed,areas locked down,people move on with life.i too will join them soon.but this song is valuable.the only treasured possession.like a passport or an i.c.what keeps me moving ahead is what is close to me.and i really appreciate it.

i will write more of lyrics in time.by the end of hols.i'd probably finished everything .just waiting to be recorded.posted and remembered.

creating a new life

2009-06-27T11:04:00.000+08:00

look into my eyes,babe,
look into my eyes,
if love is still there,
i know you would look back,

you hold on to me,now,
you don't need to leave,
you don't need to go away,
and break my heart deep

it's not a big deal,
just hear me this song,
just hear my simple voice,
hum with me all along,

i dedicate this song ,
especially for you,
if you still miss me,
you know what to do,

i'm always around,
but never be seen,
you know what to do,
if you still miss me.

you don't have to cry now,
you don't have to cry,
cuz i won't dissapear,
away to the sky

description.
it's a story .as they can say based on real life.it's about a bf-gf's most last meeting and they got separated by their path and life,then they finally get to be with each other again after those few years.but life always was ahead of them,so it's a it of complicated to say how their relationship progresses.instead of meeting up,they only chatted a couple of times in life.which made me an inspiration to write this lyric.

khas buat mu

2009-06-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

description:
this song is random.what i create for 106.i always write lyrics for certain people that have certain history with me that i still remember.randon berabis.atleast aku hepi

khas buat mu
lyric:
selamat pagi cinta,
sekilas senyuman terukir di wajah,
berbahagialah kasih,
terusi perjuangan dalam apasaja,
aku mengakui,
mungkin juga ada tangisan di mata,
bertahanlah dahulu,
bukan selamanya kau akan begitu,
jeritlah kepada ku,
melalui angin awan dan suara,
hari ini hari penting mu,
sampai hati ku lupa sungguhnya ku dapat
[repeat x2]

ingatlah ini,berbahagiala..bercerialah..
berthanlah dahulu,
kau akan berjaya..kau akan berjaya..
kasih~

a favor for playing cards

2009-06-25T20:41:00.000+08:00

description:
i gotta reason why i want to write this lyric.so,lyric "playing cards,eh?" atu parody version ku sendiri compare to the original song "cliche".sorry to say,i have never had another affair when i am with LOOPY.aku nda dpt ckp,so what?it's getting so cold between aku ngan ea.106,you should've never know bout that.you want to know my secret....fine.i lost a bestfriend not long after 106's birthday.a few years ago.a ver meaningful bestfriend and he've known me for my damn whole life.and i really fill myself with tears and i try to make a sunshine came out from my face.

now.i don't mind if the girl he's with is better than me.i don't ask more from that girl than to appreciate what he would dare to do for her.i am free-damn it!.i can wish upon the seven seas that a someone is there to take me away.sigh.now,i have released all the hate and whatever.it's settled.it's cliche.

lyric:

live your life,
with your lover,
don't look back,
at me

look at them,
find your happiness,
just leave me,
with my side,

move on love,
i will to,(move up front)
don't get feelings,
all mixed up

love her more,
i don't mind,
i have to(leave you),
right now

i love my friends,
i love my life,
i love my family,
and my guy

he will come,
he will come(someday),
take me away,
to an adventure

status unbelieveable beb~!(in my sarcastic and bitchy mode)

2009-06-19T06:49:00.000+08:00

special thanks to si atu,and stuffs like dat.all i need now is just my wings.i bet he's using what he used to say to me to her.glad i did not do say the words i've said to my x to him.stupid hols.this means that me and ..... are on the same track.the karma comes back to me..what a perfect life circle.

i wish i can hang with ehem-ehem.and we can practise dance moves with magic in the air with other dancers.well since i find it is not really that bad being dangerous.i can now,officially do reckless stuffs like hunting for bad boys.hahahaha.jk.not bad boys,just great risk-takers.

anyway.here i go.off to singleton.thanks.i owe you just a promise but i am off to singleton.now,life is full of ups and down,i'm on my way writing lyrics that could changed my views of life.

playing cards - ellie

2009-06-19T06:23:00.000+08:00

introduction:
i don't really do break up songs that well.but since he went so beyond the line.i have to growl back.that's my heart that was cut deep.still,he could've told me he want my company.he want all those stuffs that i have treated him.but,since he FOUND this girl to be something cute,lovely and whatever.oh~ such a sweet talker.he want to be not alone.ok!but if he want to slam my heart down.ohoho,this song will tell him how i feel.the chick's innocent.i can't spill her clothes,give her a great prank,for her sake,he's "in love" with her.the last thing i want to do was ruin a girl's heart.WE GIRLS DON'T CURE EASILY.BUT WE BRUISE EASILY.love goes deep down.i told him one no more games and stuffs.but now,oho,now,he makes me crawl back to that.BRING IT ON,ROMEO.if you're playing cards,what does it make any difference with you playing hearts??my mistake...not a word that should come out from a person who's been his victim rite??hahaha.i'm so dissapointed.but,i got my friends,my close friends,my ex-es,my bestfriends,my sis,and a whole wide world of people who believe in the power of sisterhood and superwomen.you ain't seen the last of us yet.enjoy this lyric ppl.

the song:
I mean no harm,
Just telling you,
I’m doing fine,
Yeah I really am,
Since the day you left me,
Since we broke up on that day

All I have right now,
Were my friends,
So this is how,
I’m doing it
I’m gonna make you feel mad
I swear that you will regret

I’m walking on,
If you don’t mind,
I have an attitude,
That is fine,
I will be your nightmare,
I’m gonna let your eyes flare

Looking at me,
Makes your heart boil,
Then look a bit closer
To the scene,
I’m dancing with my passion,
With one of my close friends.

I really don’t want,
To do this thing,
But what you did to me,
Was unforgiving,
Hey you broke your promise,
It’s a really big deal,

To me,
Your promise represents your heart,
It’s really not a big deal,
Its just a cut,
Maybe that’s what you say,
Like you even care anyway,

Seems to me that,
Your words are lies,
And you are living,
In a disguise
How does it feel now
When your lover is mocking you

It’s probably a lie,
What its been for you,
But to me it’s real,
I’m fine as I have you,
Now I feel pathetic,
Knowing that you’re fake.

I have to say,
You got me tripped,
If that’s the game you play,
Then count me in,
I am in the mood to,
Have fun like you want to

i miss going to school

2009-03-25T07:32:00.000+08:00

i do,miss going to school.i don't mind about the h1n1 atleast i get to see the faces that don't live in a roof with me.being infected is just another thing.but i just can't die yet.not that i don't want to risk it.i need to earn my living ,first.atleast my people are fine.and happy with me.i have to give a big thank you to them.for benig in my life.to help me,that i'm not alone,i don't have to feel shattered.

lawaaa

2009-03-19T09:56:00.000+08:00

you girls in purti masna

2009-03-15T05:03:00.000+08:00

yaaay.maths d .uhuhuhu physics practical test.i'm doomed.i cannot predict what i might get for the exams...i did not finish my maths d paper 2 urgh..sakit hati ku~ remuk jantung ku.i miss 5c so much.i miss the friendly laughter,i miss camel,nurul,froggy,qel,mem,bella,sai,mizah,fizah,mj,waji,raffe,hanis,meow,pbee,wani,vv,ema and mahirah.

kamu the beast classmate,tq for ur help for that one year.and aku ngakun ah,aku nda rindu mr D or any teachers d sna..heheh sorry teachers come later

ouh btw,bye gtg

sweet disaster day

2009-03-12T16:42:00.000+08:00

the day was spoiled but i was much more calmer than before.its my big day.i remmember this day and date for as long as i was to remain me.not my birthday but one of the most important dates of my life.that changes me,given me support and the day i am feeling thankful that it has not been over even though what happen was a triumphant day.

must never give up hope that it might happen

sai

2009-03-09T06:27:00.000+08:00

not actually planning anything,i love today,i love whatever i love and you ain't gonna steal it away form me..

love and truth by yui yoshioka

this song is a nice track for ppl who loves someone.i love that someone and that someone is further than me...i'm preety cool with that,but i just don't want to get insane.without him,wish me luck we'll be together and we might have a chance to meet each other.amin~

dear you out there

2009-03-06T03:27:00.000+08:00

was it meant to be this way?(slow track)
are we suppose to feel like this?

did we do something wrong?
where have we been all along?
till now we're all alone.

i'm sorry for the fight were in,
i never wanted it to happen,

something bad just came out,
the next second we are out,
and we regret what we done.

was i over-reacting?
was i misunderstanding?

explain me why you done so,
you make me jealous of it beau,
tell me honestly the truth.

you know we are meant to love,
to hold each other and give a hand,

so why must it end up like this?
why do we have to end the,
whole thing that we had.

oh,i have,dreamt,of you,(fast track)
every,sleep,i went to,
and love,i,do love you,
can we do what we do,

can we start,all,over,
forgive me for,what i've done,
i want to go,back with you,
please accept me back to you

it's not too late to change ur mind,
you are a beauty by my eyes,

i'm sorry if i can't speak,
the sight of you suprises me,
make me end up breathlessly.

this heart of mine just keeps beating,
faster and faster before our meeting,

now i see you my world stops,
i'm in awe oh i'm in love,
you're just so modest yet so perfect in

read the chorus (red colour)again

neways,this song is inspired by khai (c abang),and it's quite the perfect catch cuz, the beat is simple and i've just made it like for an hour ni baru awal ani.so.hope you guys like it.plus,it's for the peeps out there..this song was based on my own imagination and i can't think of a title so...let that be its title.and i'll give a quick tour on how it works..

guitar

2009-03-06T01:23:00.000+08:00

uh~ not actually a matter.but it's a lyric i would like to present,but,people might think wrong of it.maybe it's kind of somewhat a sex appeal song.but it's not.jangan perasan,it's for my guitar.i love this guitar and i name it greig jasper...hey gj! ok i'll start

such a beautiful name,
everybody keeps saying about you,
everywhere i go i can't avoid it,
went to the flea market and there you are,
graced to amazed people

you make it sound so beautiful,
you give sparks to all talents in this world,
people thinks you are the greatest,
magic ever found

see when i'm looking at you like i've never been,
my hands just cant resist to touch your skin,
now that you are..wrapped around me,so,
i'm gonna give it a shot

some people tells me that,youre too fragile,
i'll care for you ,and nobody else will,
be a legend for them to know,
till my deat be carved by you

remember me, remember you,
through all the lyrics we've been to,
remember me,remember you,
goes all for the owners.

my call

2009-03-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

it's been a while,so,i'm coming clean and keeping it real.i'm helping the drama club in my school.stick them together as a club.gotta organise when the next meeting .i'm respecting all the members decision,like if they want to do cliques v.s. independence,well i'm ok with that.as long as everbody settle down.and vote for a character for each person;think about what costume they should wear;what script they should read,cuz,lately....there's been a crack down of arguements...and i want them to make a petition of peace...

then the show must go onwe gotta make a rule for the club

like
1.all members are given tasks.like "organiser","restore order","stage co-ordinator" and etc.
2.all members are given their say about the play
3.all members are role players
4.the scripts can be changed a few details,if the role player can't cope with it
5 .every memeber has to be informed about the next meeting and so.

i guess that's all

al el